+ Internalization 🌱
Planted: November 20, 2022
Last tended: February 25, 2023
I will never forget my first time. How beautiful it was. I was so lucky it happened with her. I can’t imagine it happening with anyone else. She was so sweet, so tender, so kind, so loving, so understanding, so happy. Five nights in a row, we stayed up all the way through. She’d fall asleep in my arms as the sun came up. Shagging and cuddling and talking. Just the 2 of us, a big house to ourselves, it was like our own tiny universe. That experience only happened thanks to her. She showed me what it felt like to be worthy of love, to be accepted, to be wanted.
Could I have turned out worse without that experience? It was funny, and a bit sad I guess, to read how predictable our bond was. But none of that matters; this is one of my all-time favorite memories.